Tuesday, February 9, 2010
{ 6:11 PM }
I know when I'm down, it seems like I don't appreciate the care from my friends.
I was feeling like really terrible, since last night.
I think mostly everyone noticed how ugly my eyes looked early this morning...
I plugged my music in throughout the whole car ride, listening to Atreyu.
Sometimes it really feels as if music is my only escape.
Especially now that I don't have time to paint.
I could feel my heart sinking again the moment I had to unplug my earphones cause I entered school.
There was the silence of the morning, my every thought seemed louder than ever.
And so did the beat of my aching heart and my throbbing headache.
The pain was so familiar.
Then I heard
Mardhiah, behind me asking me if I was okay.
Thank you Mardhiah.Angel was lovely, she kept offering me skittles.
She made me giggle throughout the whole of chem spa.
She was super chubi all the way, damn funny la my buddy.
Thank you Angel.Sophie saw me and yet again, she always seems to notice what happened and the cause of it.
Passed notes to her. I can't wait to get back to our old seat and talk easily.
Thank you Sophie.Sharifah Hannah Al-Attas was the best, she stuck to her promise and just silently massaged me.
She didn't say anything until she saw my teardrop.
She offered to show me bangla affection, which made me smile.
Thank you Saddam, you're the best.
House Of Cards.
I love your ability to make me forget about everything hurtful.
I love how when I'm with you guys, its like I'm in a whole other world.
I love the happiness and the laughter you surround me with.
I love the insanity bubble we get trapped in when we're together.
Whether its twisterwithfingers, playing truth or dare, bitching or making fun of each other,
There hasn't been a single day that passed by throughout the four years where you guys failed to make me smile.
You are my family.
I love all of you so dearly.
Thank you HOC, with all my heart.
Ariel and Saiba for making the time to see me. I can't wait.
Thank you, BestFriends. I miss you so so so much.Because I have friends like this, I realise don't have to pretend to be strong all the time.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
{ 1:17 PM }
Oh no, I assumed and now I assume that my assumption is wrong and I hate it when I assume things and my assumption is wrong so I hope my assumption about my assumption being wrong isn't right ): My assumption was right (:
Hahahaha no matter, I'm going to see Lexy later and all my problems will poof away. Lex ditched me to get her CNY stuff ):
BYE.HELLO.
I like how you care even when I make it almost impossible for you to.
I like how you make my face light up everytime your name pops up on my screen.
I like how you can trigger my laughter even on my worst days.
I like how you bear with my teasing and be able to tease me back.
I like how you aren't the type of person that I thought I'd like.
You made my day (:
Saturday, February 6, 2010
{ 9:31 PM }
Aikido was very fun today :D
We learnt a new lock!
Hahaha today I partnered once with a very cute boy.
He acted serious when he was fighting me, with the "you're going down!" face,
I couldn't help but laugh.
He was good though (:
Fighting with Peilin was a tragedy when it came to one of the new movements.
Instructor Shamus was laughing at me :S
I threw Peilin pretty good cause after she got up she was like "WOAH LIKE WRESTLING."
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
The rest of the day was nothin much.
I can't help but go back to it,
There's still fire burning at the back of it,
Eventhough there's a lack of it.
Friday, February 5, 2010
{ 7:50 PM }
HELLO.
Today was kinda slack.
Hehehe chem spa was good cause I didn't mess up (:
Sophie kept putting urea on me, ahahahha.
Anyway, had lunch with Mingmin!
Had Dominos.
Omg I love the pizza there I swear.
So much better than pizza hut.
Then had string which was rather short today.
Met the new sec ones.
After string, gathered at video world to surprise Rachael for her birthday :D
We switched off the lights and ssshhh-ed like so many times cause we were so excited.
While waiting for her, the candles melted on the cake!
Anyway Rachael came in like super shocked and everything, so funny!
She's been getting cheeko notes all day.
E.g. "Your legs are so nice, when will they open?"
"When I'm down, I want you to be on top of me"
HAHAHA.
So HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHAEL!
Also,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZFAR AKBAR!!!
(:
&I'm out (:
Simply put, what's done is dead and gone
Can't forget, not for very long
There is no pride involved in love.
You can't manufacture happiness
Try forever, you would be remissed
There is no pride involved in love,
No pride involved.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
{ 10:52 PM }
Today marks the end of the beginning, it scares me.
Hahaha walao Lex took a photo of me and three people had fun virtually playing with my boobs.
Went to Kallang with Lex, Noran & Sinthiya-ae(according to voice activation using iphone).
Watched SPY NEXT DOOR, FUNNY SHIT.
THEY CRIED, cause apparently it was so touching. (damn gay please)
Then bought this superrrrrrrrrrrr nice mirror and headed to tuition.
I am lazy to do english homework.
Don't waste your time on me,
You're already the voice inside my head.
I miss you.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
{ 5:37 PM }
1. I studied extremely hard for chem and was pretty confident. Usually I would say I screwed the paper but this time, the paper screwed ME. Fuck, I am still damn sad about it.
2. Geog was okay. SS was okay. Bio was not as hard as chem.
3. 3.5/40 for the previous Amath test -.- Fuck trigo.
4. Got a B for my hml compo. Argh.
Thank God for the help and support of my friends.
I seriously think I would have died by now without them.
HOC, JAHALA, Sophie, Angel, Marissa, Alif, Afiq.
Thank you guys so much for keeping me going.
XOXO
Thursday, January 28, 2010
{ 9:48 PM }
HI.
Today was bitter sweet, like dark chocolate.
I had BAHAS today (Malay debate)
WE WON!
As you guys know my spoken malay is like !@$#@$!, so you must be shocked.
Hahahaha.
It was my first time debating in malay so yeah I was unusually nervous.
I could feel my whole body shaking.
As I was talking, I kept telling myself: STOP SHAKING, YOU SOUND SO STUPID.
But I couldn't stop shaking... so much for mind over matter!
The good thing is that I had the support of my friends (from the opposite team and the same team)
Hehe, Mardhiah's little note, Fatin's "its okay" smile, Nad's goodluck, Noran's "Good job MG!" and Nurul's "Not bad for first time" was (Y)
XINYING who told Mrs Chan that I didn't pass up my spa task 3. Its totally wtf, the day before when she asked me, I already told her I got it back yet she still told mrs Chan that I didn't hand it up _|_
Sophie was damn high today!
After school, Starbucks at siglap with Tamanda and Attas.
Studied SS and a bit of Amath, Hannah taught me (:
Then bus-ed to bedok inter with Attas who LITERALLY dragged me to see the weird neighbourhood that she talks so much about.
My heartbeat was insane and Hannah enjoyed every bit of it.
Apparently, there's supposed to be an earthquake in singapore tmr.
If its true, and I die tmr...
I want you to
know with every dying breath, I'd be mouthing I love you. take care of my blue cow.
P.s. Thank you Amanda ooi for the thought of giving me chocolate brownie that dayyy.
